Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Beautiful,Snowy Day

  I hope you all had an amazing Christmas and a wonderful New Year! I know I keep making promises to come back to blog land but now I am back for good, I promise!
 It's another beautiful, snowy day in Wyoming I'm loving this amazing weather and time with my wonderful children.
   Sipping hot caramel coffee, soft music playing, children quietly playing their Nooks, with the amazing smell of homemade potato soup simmering on the stove, life couldn't get any better, I am finally happy with where my life is. I honestly can say I love being a single parent, I wish the things that lead up to me being a single parent hadn't happened for my children's sake but through it all we have become stronger, more bonded, closer then ever and for that I am very thankful.
   So much has changed the past few years but things change over the years, some for the good, some for the worse but inevitably things are bound to change.
   Daisy went thru this really tomboy spell the past year or so where she refused to wear any girl clothes at all, I figured it was a spell and so I just let her wear what she wanted , let her pick her new clothes when she needed new clothes and found out that if they just sold more girl stuff in Ninja Turtles and superheroes then she probably would have never went that route lol but I figured out I can buy them in the boy's section a size up and adapt them to a girl's cut and style and she is totally happy, so I have a stack of shirts sitting here waiting to be adapted.
   In so many ways its been a long winter already and in other ways its flown by but it is hard to believe we are on the upside to counting down for Christmas again. As a child I remember time just couldn't go by fast enough between birthdays and Christmases but now time just needs to slow down a little I feel like my children are growing so fast that soon I won't be such a big part of their lives as they will grow more independent and begin to think more on their own and become more opinionated (if that's possible lol)
   I have a new hobby I am interested in and am in the process of getting the supplies to begin making reborn babies to sell but mostly for friends and family. So about a month or so ago I bought my first baby for myself she is Phil Donnelly's Enya prototype reborned by Silvia Creations. She is absolutely gorgeous, it has taken many years for me to actually step out and make a purchase like this because it is not cheap or an easily made decision, however as costly as she was I do not regret purchasing her at all, if this is going to be something I decide to do I want to have one baby by one of the top artists in the world. Of course this is something I have been buying for the girls for the past year and over a year they have each acquired three, so now they have quite a little nursery of babies going on, I really need to learn to root the hair so I can fix their babies and do the hair properly and seal it like it should have been all along. Some artists are only in it for the money and do not care about the quality of their work, I want to build a good name for myself not be known to bust out five babies a week that are poor quality.
   Now for a few pictures of the baby doll I bought and renamed Natawnee. She is stunning, and as you will see she looks a lot like Daisy did when Daisy was little, I think that's what made it such an easy decision for me to purchase her, now eventually I would like to find one that looks like Lilly did when she was little :) Hope you enjoy the pics :)

Sunday, March 16, 2014

I'm Still Here

   I think I am finally at a point in my life where I actually can get back to my daily blogging ,not quite so busy in some ways and much busier in other ways :)
   Daisy is 6 1/2, she will be 7 in July, I can hardly believe how fast time flies and how quickly children grow! Seems like just yesterday I was on bed rest fighting to save her life when it all reality it was a full 7 years ago! Daisy still does struggle with a few things from her premature birth and I am getting ready to take her to Denver Children's hospital for an evaluation as some of her progress in learning seems a little delayed and she seems to be regressing in some areas, but I'm very thankful for the opportunity I have to homeschool Daisy, it has been an amazing bonding experience for us and has brought us even closer together.
   Lilly just turned 5 in January, she is attending a specialized school that works exclusively with children with special needs, she has made great strides in so many ways and I'm beginning to question her diagnosis of Autism, I am wondering if it is more Asperger's or ASD, only time will tell I suppose and for now I'm happy with the progress she is making, not to mention she loves school, just seems she is sick every week from never having spent much time around a lot of other kids during the sick seasons lol but I think she is finally getting well again and ready to return. She only goes 4 afternoons a week for 2 hr 45 minutes where she does all kinds of learning activities along with getting her therapies, it is a wonderful school.
   I lost my camera and it seems to be forever gone, with all my pictures dating all the way back to Dec of 2011, I'm super sad and worried I will never get my pictures back, I'm glad I have backup copies on my computer but I miss it! I'm really contemplating buying a new one but definitely want to do my research before I get one, I want to get a nice one that takes good quality pictures, going to read some reviews and make my decision this week.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Life is Changing

   So, I been thinking a lot about my blog and just how much I miss it so I have decided to get back into the world of blogging about our daily lives and back to the way things used to be. My blog was always a security to me and although I have been busy I have truly missed you all and hope to get back into daily blogging.
   So, the beginning of the school year Daisy started at the public school just down the street from us and it ended terribly so once again we decided homeschooling is the way to go. We have her enrolled in an online virtual academy and it is going well, she loves it and we have been able to incorporate al of her special love of Panda Bears into her schooling and  it has been a lot of fun. I can hardly believe how fast she is growing, she will be 7 in July! Seems like yesterday  she was just a tiny baby fighting to live.
   Lilly is turning 5 on the 31st of this month, she is attending a specialized school 4 afternoons a week for children with special needs and it is going well! School has become her place to shine, she loves all the arts and craft projects and knows all of her letters and numbers and can read short words, Her teachers are super impressed with all she knows. I'm excited to see what the next years holds in store for her :)

   It has been a harsh winter in terms of illnesses but I'm quite sure that is due to the exposure to the of the public school system and they're starting to build up an immune system to all the nasty things they have been shielded from in the past. As I type Lilly is fast asleep on the floor while Daisy sits beside her watching Shrek, She has been sick off and on for the past few weeks and missed a number of days staying home sick, I hope she can rest well and feel better before Monday.
   I have a lot to do this weekend (as usual) and the cleaning and laundry seem to be never ending.
   I'm so happy to be back, I missed you all greatly and hope you're having a fantastic Saturday!

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Update n Pics

   I am back for now, I have decided to start blogging here now that things have quieted down again. Alot has happened in the past year and I am happy to say we have come through it none the worse forwear.      
  Off and on thru the past year I have been pretty sick with my seizures and migraines, I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out what is wrong and how to get well. In the past year I have been taken to the ER multiple times for my seizures and now I see a neurologist every three months and am on medications to control the seizures and have been doing better.
   I haven't been able to do much sewing or anything I have been pretty busy painting and redoing the kitchen, taking kids to and from school and trying to stay caught up on housework.
   I have a million things rolling thru my head everyday anymore and its hard not being physically capable of doing all I wish I could, but im learning my limits and learning to be happy where I am and with the things I can do.
   Im fighting a huge spiritual warfare in my soul, I cant really go into the details right now but I ask that you pray for me for deliverance, for freedom and for help in knowing what the right path to take is. Im so confused, so lost and feel so alone right now that I don't know where to go, where to turn, or who to talk to. I need spiritual guidance, I want to start going to church to find a church home where we feel welcome and fit in, somewhere my girls can find true friends and be happy.
   I have a lot of cleaning and organizing to do today, I hope to be able to finish up the kitchen and sew the new tablecloth and curtains to match the new soft yellow paint I just painted the kitchen with, it has really lightened it up a lot and makes it so much brighter, happier looking and I love it.
   The girls are getting so big and I'm so proud of them and all they have come thru so well, Lilly turns 5 in January and Daisy is 6 1/2 so time has flown by so much quicker then I ever thought possible! Lilly absolutely hates having her picture taken so its super hard to get any good pics of her lately, its frustrating because she is so cute and photogenic but has a major phobia of the camera!




Thursday, October 11, 2012

Learning Patience

   So,life has been crazy here.We moved out of our place the end of September and have been staying at my folks ever since.I'm still frantically searching for a place and a job but with no luck so far.Daisy has been going to the  little country school out here for almost two weeks,she loves it,but it isn't the same as homeschooling (which I love).However at the last moment I decided it would be best at least until we get settled and into a routine.
   Most of our belongings are in storage for now and I so long for a place to call home.To be in our own home again,me and the girls,to have our own schedule,to get up and make my own kids breakfast and do our own laundry,etc.Don't get me wrong I greatly appreciate every single thing my mum n dad do for us but I cant wait for life to get back to "normal"
   I hope you're all doing well.
   God Bless you all as you continue thru this journey we call life (((hugs)))

Monday, September 3, 2012

Fun in the Sun

Ok,so maybe there wasnt so much sun,but they had lots of fun!

I got my Rainbow!

   Last night I cried myself to sleep praying that somehow there would be hope found somewhere...
   Remember yesterday I prayed for a glimmer of a rainbow?Nothing fancy,well he sent me that today!I am feeling alot better,trusting things r gonna be ok

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Adventures at the Carnival

Adventures At the Carnival

Please Pray for a Glimmer of hope

   Life seems to have its ways of going from bad to worse,I can only hope it will get better after it gets worse.Like the rainbow after the storm.I know deep down in my heart the universe wont give me more than I can handle,but at the same moment it is so overwhelming that I have thought (more than once) about giving up but something deep inside me is still fighting for a better life for me and my girls.

   As everyone on here knows I'm openly gay (I came out in Dec 2011)In May I was jumped and put in the hospital by my ex.My landlord found out I was gay and wrote me a lease violation for it.Then again she wrote me another lease violation (for being gay) for bogus things such as having to call the police to my home when my ex tried to kick the door in a few weeks ago.Well,yesterday she wrote me an eviction notice,so I am losing my housing,I have nowhere to go,nowhere to take my girls,not sure what we are going to do,however I'm trying to look up and still see the bright side of things,the bring side? Not sure what it is but I'm sure there is one somewhere,maybe its to make me become even more self reliant?maybe its to draw me n my girls even closer?
   I have a hearing with the housing officer on Friday,I am not holding my breath,hoping for the best but expecting the worst...It is with tears I ask you to please pray for us that something will work out for me n my girls.Please pray for our rainbow in the storm...
   Im not asking for this...

   Right now even this would make my day...