We will never forget the victims whose lives were claimed on 9-11-2001.
I don't remember what I was doing on that exact day ten years ago,however I do remember the sadness that filled my heart for the many families who lost loved ones in the horrible tragedy.
Today I am filled with extreme gratefulness to God for giving me my wonderful family and that they are still here for me to care for.As hard as it is to be a parent of a special needs child sometimes I wouldn't trade it for the world.I know there are days I have grumbled or complained that I have to clean up when Lilly poos or pees in her room,or that I have to scrub all the poo off her walls sometimes multiple times a day,or that I have to do laundry or dishes.Today,I realized I cant complain because these are all great privileges I have been given.From now on when I have to clean up after Lilly's tantrums I'm going to thank God that I GET to clean up after her,or thank God that I have my family I GET to take care of and serve.
Many families from 9-11 would give everything they had to spend time with the loved ones they lost so I am not going start thanking God for everything He has given me.
My deepest sympathy to the families of 9-11,to the victims,you will never be forgotten.
My heart is very heavy,last night at 11pm shots rang out and neighbors heard screaming.The cops were called and two people are left dead and one in critical condition.
This kind of thing never happens in our small city of 52000 people.Our state is among the top six with the lowest crime rate in America.We are one of the highest ranked states to raise a family,one of the states with the lowest unemployment rate.Our city sees maybe one murder a year,and then it is usually a transient death.So far we have had multiple homicides this year and now 3 in the past 6 weeks.
It makes me sad because all over America we are hearing about homicides,school shootings,shootings,gang murders,drug deals gone wrong,prostitutes being murdered,children being slain by their own parents and people whom they trust.Innocent people are losing their lives daily.
What has happened to America,the land of freedom?
The daily news makes me cringe at raising my children in this sinful world,some days I wonder if they are even safe in their own beds at night.I wonder if they are safe around friends,or to go to the park or grocery store.
But then I remember everything is in Gods hands and He is in control.So as hard as it might be at times I am struggling every day just to lay it all down at the feet of the Savior who is watching over this dark sinful world with great sadness.I struggle to just trust Him with my children,to put them in HIS hands and trust Him to protect them and keep them safe.Tonight I realized that worrying about these things does me no good at all because it is not in my hands.All I can do is focus on the moment and live each as though i were my last so I can live without regrets.
